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My heart is racing.  I just saw the movie Julie and Julia.  It was great.  An unconventional love story.  A story of the love of life, love of food, and love between husband and wife.

I wouldn’t be the introspective Mommy blogger I am if I didn’t admit I saw bits of my own story in both Julie and Julia.  Thankfully I didn’t identify too much with the lost, unfulfilled, under-employeed, whiny, and mental meandering of thirty year old Julie.  That was so six years ago for me.

I am more of the lost, unfilled, under-employeed, whiny, and mentally meandering of thirty-six year old Julia Child,  as we meet her in the film.

Yes and no actually.  I have come to accept that there will always be a part of me that is searching (and  underemployeed)  except to be honest I feel a lot less lost now. I am not talking driving though, forever confused and U-turning I will be.  Not meaning to I found my meaning and direction within my blended family.  I followed my heart.

I have a Swiss husband who is twenty years older than me and has no idea what I am talking about half the time.  Ettore says things like “cheap goat” for “cheap skate” and he always uses woman as a plural.  For instance, “woman like shopping.”  I don’t poke fun because it is adorable and I don’t speak German.  Plus it makes me fall in love with him all over again.   My stepsons are fantastic and I get to be a part of all the fun of being a teenager again.  Most of which I missed out on, but I get to be a positive adult in their lives.  Finally my baby boy completes the circle.  Who knew that one little smile could change my whole feelings about life…for the better.

We are not conventional, but we are real.  We make mistakes and we try to correct them.  We hurt and we try to mend.   We take for granted and then we learn to appreciate.  There are some that criticize us/me for being a blended family and for “stepping” in.   It used to really bother me, mostly my own feelings of guilt.  Not anymore.  Like Julie and Julia I followed my heart, found my calling and my love, and TOGETHER as a family we created something delicious….and I didn’t have to cook!

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